i right my thoughts down about you, hoping you will leave my mind. usually is works with other subjects, but the thought of you never seem to leave my mind for one second. when something goes wrong, your the one i want to talk to. when something horrible happens your the first person i want tell. when i’ve accomplished something bug, your the only person that i want to notice. I don’t care about anyone else. I do so many things for you because when it comes down to it i hope that you will do the same for me. When i get my nose re aligned i want you to be the one comforting me, and holding my hand. your a never ending love song that never gets old. your like that one piece of happiness that you have never wanted to get rid of. you surprise me everyday, everyday there is a new reason why i like you. I don’t want to give up on you because i have been locked up for so long. and all this waiting and wanting was for nothing? that what keeps me holding on. you, are my little glimpse of happiness, of hope. 

your like every taylor swift song, You make me feel so many emotions. I want you to be my firsts. to kiss in the rain, to fall asleep under the stars, to take pictures in a photo booth. i’m only me when i’m with you. Love is fearless. i want to be fearless for once in my life. just to get that glimpse of what it feels like.  so i am going to be fearless with you. we don’t always have happiness in our lives, it only comes every so often. that is what keeps me going, is seeing you and getting that little bit of happiness in the pit of my stomach when i don’t even want to smile. your blue eyes and big smile is what keeps me going. you, see me for who i am. you’ve never asked questions, asked me to change who i am. we laugh together and care about each other. I feel like that is enough. i feel like i’m waiting on someone that doesn’t want me. I’ll find that out when i get up the courage and strength to ask. why can’t you just be a man and make the move. your my superstar, and you have no idea. you make me crazy inside, and i don’t think you have a clue. just stay beautiful <3

If i told you that i liked you, would you like me back?

i need to take a chance, a chance at you. at love. Its been so long, and i’m scared of the outcome. I don’t want things to change between us. if you say yes, everything will be perfect. and exactly what i have been hoping for. If you say no, i don’t know what i would do. I would be broken. I would also lose you as one of my close friends. The biggest reason i don’t want to tell you is that i don’t want to know the truth. I like knowing that there is always hope. You make me smile, and i make you laugh. You seem like you care about me. So there is that little bit of hope that keeps me going. makes me wake up in the morning and look decent for the day. That hope that i have for us is the only thing keeping me going. So if you said no, that hope would be gone, and it would break me. At times I like wondering because it would be either or and nothing is definite. MOst of the time i want to know, so i can get this wonder out of my head, and so i can move on. All i want it you. I do everything to see if you will notice, no one else. I only care about if you have noticed. and you haven’t. It’s like i have to spell it out, i guess i will have to some day. Help me keep that hope. So i have a reson to hold on.